Selfie or not to Selfie.
Here's a topic usually reserved for when men have already met me. Most are shocked by the accuracy of my images and the nice surprise of the blurred spaces when meeting me.
So many are nervous because I guess many have been burned or in a lot of cases had unrealistic expectations due to magazine like edits. So I am asked why I don't have more selfies. As stated I'm not your usual working girl I don't dress like even the way a normal western person would in day to day life. In my day to day life I am very private and modest, was I always this way, no. But it is something that increased more when I began working. If I had it my way in honesty all of my images would be fully clothed but that would not market myself properly as my curves look better naked or and in honesty I feel I would be even more recognisable in daily life.
Guys that have met me understand it I guess because we have more in depth converstations. But I feel like I have enough of me out there that soon I will be removing and some that have been published without my will on non ethical sites that do not get prior permission to advertise, so thankful for copyrights but dreading the lengthy debate in getting them removed.
When I retire I am perminately leaving the business and removing all of my presence in the industry completely. As this was a job in my life but not my whole life. My plans for my life are very different to the direction of this career.
I am and always have been very good at what I do and recently I feel like finally after years I am finally attracting clients I like to spend time with. Clients who understand me and appreciate me properly and I am so thankful for them I am also so saddened I didn't meet them earlier in my career.
I have heaps of selfies I took on my phone and dayum they are hot as sometimes I tempt a regular friend or two by teasing them with some pics ( one of them it seems to be our 'thing') lol).
I even went to upload them the other day but I stopped and thought is uploading these really sending the message I want to portray in the last few weeks of this industry? Will posting more put my life in a direction I see fit for my future or display the direction I intend to head? Right before I hit upload I said outloud 'no'.
I have been on the internet for years, my boobs have been out there on my old Twitter they had been retweeted hundreds of times jumping up and down to Nikki Minaj. I had my time in my life and career displaying promiscuity to attain clientele and further by business. In some parts hiding the fact of who I really am as a lady and modest who doesn't enjoy or entertain party like business. But right now I'm in the wind down phase and value my goals for outside of the industry higher than obtaining more followers on a account that will be deleteted or bookings.
These days I find myself attracting the right type of men and crazily enough so many actually read my posts (I find it crazy because if you were to go through my messages you could almost declare 98% of men engaging in this business do not read)
I'm so greatful for the 2% that make it through my booking process .
I have found I have done this by 1 getting a good photographer that doesn't over edit photos. I found my images this time around really displayed me as I am it wasn't a magazine shoot and I am so glad it wasn't she did remarkable job of showing my natural body. I'm not a size 6 or firm everywhere and I don't want to be. My body type and shape attracts the type of people I like to attract .
Another thing was speaking my mind in regards to my blogs and things even though I feel they are completely random and can be quiet varying in themes and almost sometimes allow too much thoughts to be filtered through but I have found these to be incredibly valuable to my business and I wish I implemented them sooner.
Another huge one being myself, displaying parts of my culture and the fact I am modest it's a part of who I am and so many clients of mine find comfort in who I am as a person. To the little things I used to spray tan... alot... lol and I had an obsession with being almost orange but I am naturally porcelain as I am not the type of girl in my private life you will see on a beach in a bikini sorry to pop thought bubbles. I am glowing white I used to hate it but now I love it and obsess about getting any sunburn and even have been contemplating wearing gloves when driving I don't want old hands... I probably will do this in coming years my skin will be 100% sunburn free.
So back to the topic I was going to release a batch of phone selfies before I retire but I decided against it. It's moving in a opposite direction of where I am headed and i have enough content I will need to remove already. My body is already out there and my images are 100% me just with a blurred face and hidden ink some images it's blurred some hidden with sheets. I put some images I look at and think I look horrendous in, why because I feel it's better to display all my poses even those I don't like as it's more accurate than the perfect positioned image where I look like a goddess 100% of the time. I retire very soon and will be embarking on a very different and longly anticipated path. Although yes I would love too meet new people before I leave it is not a dire necessity for me, I have ample regulars who adore my personality and my body and understand how conflicting posting more images is in regards to where I am going in my life. They get that and in most circumstances admire that. So although I'm open too and hoping to meet new clients yet again I want the right ones and those who read and are smart understand and are generally my kind of people. (Haha I never listen too English music but randomly just had that weird song I'm here with all of my people pop into my head haha... had the weirdest movie clip to it, just had to share that lol moment of my brain with you all).
So no there won't be more selfies, there wont be more photo shoots and there won't be more videos. Just more blogs and opportunity to get some real booty before I go on holiday. And may be a week or two more before I retire. That's something I'm taking a holiday to think about.. maybe I may be regular or known clientele only in my last few weeks. Not sure.
But that's a little reason or quiet a big one why I don't post photos left right and centre, different directions and different lives. Also liking modesty and some discretion to my real life. I used to model and I know why I turned away from that I am just not about that life. I don't even have social media in real life that I post photos of me on. I'm not that kind of girl per say. I always wanted to be seen for my brain and what I have to say as crazy as it maybe
Thanks for reading
Hugs and kisses
Armarni B xx
