diary of male escort Gael: A German "Sex Addict" Girl's Road to Self-Redemption
Yesterday I met a new client: Miss S, a 24-year-old athlete from Germany on a working holiday in Australia. She has the proud, deep-set features of a German, dark-blonde hair and pale blue eyes. Her whole body is tanned a golden wheat colour, which shows off her toned legs even more, and her full, firm hips were wrapped in a short skirt. While we were still in the car, just after meeting, she openly told me about the conflict she's been feeling about sex lately. Her English isn't great, but thanks to ChatGPT we managed. It wasn't smooth, but we understood each other.
I once had an Italian client who was also very open about the topic of sex and comfortable with it. To her it was a normal kind of fun, like drinking or dancing. I'll tell her story another time.
Back to the story. Miss S told me she has had three "official" boyfriends, not counting sex partners and one-night stands. With every one of them the sex wasn't working. She wanted it to last longer and hit harder, but her exes all felt she wanted too much. They said most men are the same and simply couldn't satisfy her.
Miss S knows she is a woman with a very strong sex drive. She masturbates every day, stimulating herself with a big, thick toy. She had only landed in Australia a week earlier and was living in an eight-person hostel dorm, yet she still found time every day, in the shower or while everyone was out, to release herself, done in five minutes. (I hear she's since moved into a private room. Happy for her ) Deep down she accepts this side of herself. At the same time she sees sex as sacred, and she doesn't want to be a loose woman who sleeps with men casually.
Her problem is that every time she goes out drinking, her body loses control. Her desire gets stronger and she can't stop herself from going home with a man. She doesn't want that, because she knows these fleeting flings never last. The sun always comes up.
So, Miss S told me, her solution was to leave her small hometown in Germany and come to Australia. A new job, a new way of life and new challenges might help her smother the fire inside her. She needed to get her sex drive under control.
"So, when was the last time you had sex?" I asked her.
"A couple of days ago… it was my birthday, I went out drinking…" She looked a little embarrassed, and her blush made the freckles on her face stand out even more.
While I was massaging her in my studio, I noticed how conflicted she was. Her body was clearly enjoying it, but her face stayed serious, her lips pressed shut, her voice held back.
Afterwards I told her straight out what I thought, and what I'd suggest:
"Your pain comes from a contradiction: your body has already opened up to pleasure, but your heart is still closed. Sex can't be controlled, because it's driven by your hormones. The stronger and happier you are, and the more you hold it back, the more you want it. It's fine to want to control it, but first you have to learn to release it and open up to it. If I'm right, you've never had an orgasm with a partner, and that's why you're so hooked on masturbating.
What you need to do now is slow everything down. In a safe, quiet space, take your time enjoying masturbation. Cut it down to three or four times a week, and stretch each session to 15–20 minutes. Slowly explore where your body is sensitive and learn to control the pleasure. No rushing, no racing to finish. Only then will the weight on your heart slowly melt away, into every shudder, every bead of sweat and every moan."
Miss S is adorable. She has a German's seriousness and diligence, and a young girl's shyness. I'll see her again in two weeks. I believe she's on her way to redemption, and she isn't far from the end of the road.
