When you love all the things you're not supposed to do...
I can only talk about my life after 18 here, for sake of the obvious and varied implications, however you should know that a girl like me doesn't just appear one day, she is a creation that is years in the making.
I'm not supposed to tell you about how old I was when I first started thinking of boys in that way and I'm not supposed to admit the age I began touching myself and realising the amazing things I could do with my body. It would be uncouth of me to confess that it was in my teenage boyfriend's family living room that I gave my first blowjob, and even worse to say how much I enjoyed it.
In fact, while I'm sharing, I may as well tell you that I actually spent weeks planning that first sexual experience with him.
I fantasised about it and tried on many different outfits before I finally settled on just a tiny black g string, and my favourite white singlet. You see, it was see through, and I had noticed how much nicer my boyfriend always was to me whenever I was wearing it.
It was cold that night in that living room, my nipples were hard from both the chill and my own excitement. My lips were plumped full with my favourite lip gloss, and I giggled as I sauntered toward him and saw his eyes pop. I did a little dance for him, swayed my hips and arse from side to side, felt myself get wet from the attention, then like the minx I so loved being I climbed up into his lap.
I let my breasts fall into his face, always way too big for my age and moaned as I felt his mouth do things I had only dreamt of before now.
I could have gotten lost in his attention on me, however I have always been a natural pleaser. I could lie and say it's because I'm just that selfless, but honestly, I get off on being a mans sole object of desire.
I climbed off him, rid myself of my clothes so I could be fully naked now, just as I had planned, dropped to my knees and felt that exhilarating sensation of something deep down my throat for the first time.
I didn't have much of a gag reflex, and I still don't. I licked and sucked and teased my boyfriend till he came all over my face.
These are the exact thoughts girls are supposed to keep to themselves and perhaps it's the thrill of knowing this is totally anonymous, or the safety of the discretion that this world offers, but sharing them with you fills me with a sexual hunger that makes me need to do it all over again.
Like I said, girls like me, who do what I do, who walk, talk and breathe sexual pleasure, don't just appear out of thin air.
I'm only 21 now, however everything I've ever done has made me the girl I am today.
I'm a vixen, a porn star, a naturally born creature of sex. And I can tell you now, none of those things are any fun to be if you're alone.
I love sex, and I want to show you.
Keeping all of these secrets is really getting to me and there's only so much I can share here.
Text me now, and I'll show you everything else there is to know.
Miss Ballantyne