escort diary® of Zoe Sophia

Episode 4 - Fucking your heart wide open!

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I’m tender, I am passionate, soft and sensual.

I am also extremely kinky and explorative in my sexual pursuits.

I am both at the same time, a paradox in its truest form. I believe this creates a certain depth and confidence in a woman that radiates throughout.

For me, sexual intimacy is about being present and in the flow of the moment.

It’s about feeling the energy between me and my sexual partner and playing with it. Play is the purest form of self-expression and something we (as a society) have lost the ability to allow in our lives. For many reasons, from being brought up in toxic households to childhood trauma.

To “play” is to connect with our innocent curiosity and individual creativity. This is within us all, I assure you. We just have layers and layers of conditioning, beliefs, trauma and shame blocking this flow of energy.

I’ve been through this expansive journey of shedding my own layers and I can attest to the amount of freedom I now experience when I am engaging in “play” with my sexual partner.

Being able to freely express what I desire with him/her and to have that received with love and acceptance is the most fulfilling and beautiful gift I could have ever given myself.

In turn, I can also hold, accept and allow my lovers to be just as open and vulnerable with me about their own desires because I allow this within myself.

What I allow in myself, I allow in others (I’m probably quoting someone here, but I can’t for the life of me find who said it).

I feel the most sexually fulfilled than I ever have in my life and I wish for others to experience this also. Both Men and Women are holding onto these layers that no longer serve them.

This brings me to kinks, BDSM and roleplays. I believe all these sexual expressions are normal, valid and not at all to be shamed. Everyone has a kinky side, some are just more willing to be open about it than others. That truly is the only difference between you (the kinky one) and the person that says they are “Vanilla”.

Carl Jung (Swiss Psychiatrist born in the 19th century) characterises our Shadow selves as the unconscious aspect of our personality that our ego doesn’t recognise.

Unfortunately, repression of these desires lead to unhealthy expressions of them that we see in society as rape; molestation, control, victimhood, greed etc. Extremely destructive behaviors alive in the world today.

Without going too much into the psychology of the shadow self, suffice is to say, when we allow our shadow self to emerge into the light of day this allows us to express it in a safe and healthy way. Whoops, I just rhymed a little.

When expressing this shadow self with a sexual partner that has an understanding of this, it creates a safe space to play with all of its facets, without the fear of judgement, being shamed or traumatising ourselves.

If we aren’t willing to be vulnerable with this side of ourselves it will continue to control us in unhealthy ways.

“What we resist, persists. – Carl Jung”

So in playing with this side of ourselves, the shadow, it becomes a healing experience for both the giver and receiver.

Expressing our shadow whilst channeling our sexual energy in a safe space, gives this healing experience extra potency because (I believe) our sexual energy is life force energy, coming from the Source of all creation, the Universe, God, or whatever you want to call this force of energy.

This brings me to my service as a courtesan/escort. It’s always evolving into a more authentic expression of what I want to offer.

This sexual shadow work is another expression of what I want to facilitate for others, men and women.

It may include anything from roleplays you wouldn’t dare to share with anyone, kinks relating to different body parts and exploring the shadow side of surrender and control through BDSM.

And so, because of this I will be changing the way I structure my services, to be a fully inclusive service. One where the space is open for you to explore all these different aspects of erotic shadow expressions.

This is different because I will no longer be charging extra for these kinks. They will be included in my service because ultimately, my service is about the experience and not about the different sexual acts you can do with my body.

The experience I offer is one of open heartedness; unconditional positive regard, a safe space to express and embody desires, congruence and all inclusive.

You will have the freedom to deeply connect with me without the uncomfortable conversation of “How much extra is it for……”. We will keep within the flow of the experience without having to shift away from it. Allowing for whatever arises to be experienced with me, hence the increase of my rates.

Come and explore all of your erotic shadow self with me.

I very much appreciate your continued support and subscription to my escort diary.

With Love, Zoe Sophia xx

P.s. I’d like to add a little caveat. The all-inclusiveness of my service still has to respect my own personal boundaries (only a couple of acts I will not agree to) and also what is required by law. My service is and always will be a fully protected service.

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